Monday, March 28, 2011

Good guys finish last

'Nothing like beer on a full moon night' thought Fred as he gazed down the length of the park he was sitting in and then down at the bottle of Carlsberg he was holding. The beer was getting warmer but he had had his share of booze for the night. His friend Charles was sitting right beside lost in thought.
"So, how are things with Marie?" slurred Fred. Charles gave him a dazed look and nodded. Fred took another swig of the beer and asked, "You OK dude? You seem worried." Charles was staring at the ground. He was not at all OK. Not even close.
"I don't think I love her that much dude" The alcohol seemed to just evaporate from Fred's system. "What??"
"Yea this just doesn't feel the way it should." And that marked the way for what was going to be the longest and most painful conversation ever.
Fred had known Charles for quite some time now. He had seen Charles come out of his last relationship as a shattered soul. But Marie was different. After a long long time, Charles was happy. But this news was absolutely a shocker. Fred just sat quietly and listened as Charles explained. He needed more booze.
Being a friend can sometimes be a hard job. And in that situation, Fred gave him the only advice that seemed reasonable, Charles had to break up with Marie.
Fred had known Marie for a relatively short duration of time. But they were pretty close too. She had been there for him when he had needed her and he respected her for that. But Marie was not aware of this new development. So Fred did what any other friend would have done. He tried hard to instill some faith and hope in her. Succeeded at it too. Deep down Fred hoped that things would work out between the two of them.
Luck was the bad guy here. Charles, in a desperate attempt to push Marie away told her the truth. Marie was shattered. She did really love him a lot. Fred tried talking to her but failed. Everything was going wrong.
Finally Fred managed to get Marie to talk to him. Being the friend to both of them he tried to explain the situation to Marie. But of course Marie was hurt. Fred took the lashing. In her fit of rage, she lashed out at the one person in front of her, Fred. He heard all with a smile. He felt for her, he knew she was hurt, he didn't say anything. Fred caught up with Charles eventually, told him what had happened, probably expecting some comfort. Sadly it just wasn't his day. Charles simply walked away from him.
What did he do wrong? Fred had just tried to be the guy who wanted things to end well. And now he was sitting all alone, after loosing two of his closest friends in 1 day. He watched the smoke from the lit cigarette in his hand rise slowly into the air and vanish. What had he done wrong? 

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Amake Amar Moto Thakte Dao


This is a song that I heard a few days back and found it really touching. For all my bengali friends, they would understand this pretty easily. But for all my non - bengali friends I wish to try and translate this into English.
This is a song that looks at life from a guy's perspective. It speaks of a guy trying to get back or as we call it 'move on' from a broken relationship. He has reduced himself to a drowning man in a sea of sadness, as he reflects on his past. But as they say that every cloud has a silver lining, he tries to free himself from the bond. He is lost in a sea of sad people but he is trying to rise above all of that to give life and love a second chance.



These are the actual lyrics:

Amake amar moto thakte dao
Ami nijeke nijer moto guchiye niyechi
Jeta chilona chilona sheta na pawai thak
Sab pele noshto jibon
Tomar ei duniyar jhapsa aloy
Kichu shondhyer guro howa kaancher moto
Jodi ure jete chao tobe ga bhashiye dao
Durbine chokh rakhbona Na Na
Na Na Na Na (X2)

Ei jaahaj mastul chhaarkhaar
Tobu golpo likhchi baanchbaar
Ami rakhte chai na aar taar
Kono raat dupurer abdaar
Tai cheshta korchi bar bar
Shaantre paar khonjar

Kokhono akash beye chup kore
Jodi neme ashe bhalobasha khoob bhore
Chokh bhanga ghume tumi khujo na amay
Ashe pashe ami ar nei...
Amar jonne alo jelo na keu
Ami manusher shomudre gunechi dheu
Ei station-er chattore hariye gechi
Shesh train -e ghore phirbo Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na (X2)

Tomar rokte ache shopno joto
Tara chhutchhe ratri din nijer moto
Kokhono shomoy pele ektu bhebo
Anguler phaanke ami koi
Hisheber bhire ami chaina chhute
Joto shukno peyajkoli fridge -er sheete
Ami obelar daal bhaate phuriye gechi
Bilaasher jole bhashbo Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na (X2)

Ei jaahaj mastul chharkhar
Tobu golpo likhchi banchbaar
Ami rakhte chai na ar tar
Kono rat dupurer abdar
Tai cheshta korchi bar bar
Shaantre par 
khonjar

And this is the translated version: 

Please let me lead my own life
I have created my own space for myself
What I could not achieve, let it be unachieved
Achieving everything ruins life.

In your own  world
Just like a speck of dust, you can float away if u want
But I am not going to dip into the future ( Literally: won't keep on looking through the binoculars )

My world is shattered ( Literally : the mast of my ship is shattered )
Still I am writing the story of my survival
I will no longer be the subject to your tantrums and wishes
And that's why I'm trying again and again, to swim to the shore

If one morning you quietly find your love for me
Don't look around for me
As I am not by your side any more
Dont turn on the lights for me
I have fallen into the sea of humanity and lost on this railway station
I wont be catching the last train home

Whatever dreams you do have in you,
Are running around madly on their own will
If you ever find time, just think back
Where am I in your cupped hands
In your world of materialism,
I dont want to be treated like decaying vegetables in the cold refrigerator
Or wallow in the sea of love-loss